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Last saturnday had dinner with Sarah, Jereld, Jason and of course Jereld gf. We had steamboat at Sarah house. Me and Jason went over to Sarah house and had abit of conversation between ourselves. The stuff about the donkey*( I just dunno how to spell her name except her nick given by other) I am very impress by the person thinking and her feeling. Reading the blog actually make me laugh out loud but if I do not know her I can say I also can feel the sadness within her heart. One thing I realise that she shared with several people I had known is that these people do not have friends at all even it is, it just by the surface that all. The worst is to get disliked by people whom you try to befriend to. So we can pointed out where the problem. However I do not know her and she have to crawl her way out of her own world. You cannot keep blaming other and giving excuse that misfortune keep falling on to you. You must understand that there a reason for it to happen and what can you learn from such event. It is not other who can help you but is you yourself to pull yourself up.
I respect how much the effort you put for the one you had in your heart but due to the nature course. The love you have is in vain. Attend some self improvement course or volunteer your service. Hopefully from there you can achieve something morally.
Back to the dinner then, Meet xiao xin xin. He really puff up abit and the way he talk is so random that it make me laugh until I cant even eat a dinner properly. Poor Jereld, I bet he enjoyed being kan jiao the whole dinner from Xiao xin xin. Jereld grilfriend is Huiting if not wrong. Hmmm, quite social and outgoing. Cant say much more about her since we get to know for only few hours? Hahaha, I like the food although there dont seen to be any sauce. Well, it much more healthy I guess. Chit chat there and enjoy the entertainment from xiao xin xin. Cant really talk much cause dont even know have any common topic anot. Hehex, I really love the dinner though it just a few of us but it is the heart that matter. While eating and chatting together, it suddenly make me think that it really a family dinner. The guys chat at the table while the spouse go to room to gossip latest new and the children playing games together. It so cool if only it really happen within the next 30 yrs. Still very long ahead but then I will definitely be contented. Oh ya, I almost miss out Jason gf. Although haven stead yet but Jason told me that they will be together. One thing I really found it to be funny when he told me that his girlfriend not pretty at all. What the, did I mention that you must get a pretty and hot girlfriend? I thought I alway pointed out that personalities and Characters is the one that mark the strength of love. -_-||.....sweat. I be happy if both of Jason and Jereld have an everlasting love as well to those I known and those I do not know. Love is hard for it is a commitment. It flow like smoothly and it just dried up. How much can you last is up to you and how your partner think. Do not think how long you think you can last, think how much can you achieve by having her beside you.
Sometime is not that I dont believe Xiao mei thinking but is just that I cant get myself to believe it. If she went into relationship with that guy. It is how mature that guy is thinking not how xiao mei think.If both parties can be think too much then I fear the the relationship can be also too much for them if it happen.It not easy to live or to live by yourself in a world that you do not know how to adapt to but it is up to your determination to fight for it. Althought flow by the nature, it our chance to get better thing within our grip. I finally know what all the guys out there have been facing in their class but neverthless we do know we have true friend around us.
THank Peng yu for sending me home. Through these years he really treat me very well and I hope the moment I get my driving license I can fetch him around if he need to. Awww....think of that...I just dont believe I can fail my basic theory test 3 times!!! Waaa.....damn sianz....haha...god will...
This blog have finally reached an ending. Hopefully within this 2days I can switch over to the new blog. I dont intend to use worldpress,xanga or livejournal. Yea....so this post will be quite a bit long. WEEEE!!! XD
I wish the well being of all who dwell in this earth. I am very grafeful how blessed I am to know all those people around me giving me support and understand me well. Although Edmund confess that he is jealous of me however the truth I also envy him for his livestyle. The truth lie within my heart, if I have an brother/sister is because my love for him/her. It is also a commitment. The only thing I need to do is just to appear when they need anything and I just vanish if there is nothing needed from me. The most important thing is how you love them and express it. Heex.....although I really dont have time to contact some of my family* but I still remember them in my heart whether it can be 50yrs later or what. Muahahaha.....okok.
To those WCG player in zinc, if you happen to played with me. The reason why I am 2nd-hamsterlord is because I am born on the 2nd of june. I love hamster and they are brighten my daily live. I really love a hamster that why. I have several nick and the previous nick before the hamsterlord was actually ruinlord. Somehow like the sound of lord thus hamsterlord is formed. Heex.
-The ending of Hamsterlord(2007)- (Analog)
Nut and Nut before I gonna be one too.
-The ending of darkpassion(2006)- (Analog)
When the heart of mine burn with passion it is by fate that the person I love cannot be by my side. For that I sent my heart to the deepest depth of hell and posion it by the hatred of evil.
Not quite sure is type analog or what.... Offcial closure of this blog!!! Cya again =D
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 1:15 AM on Tuesday, November 27, 2007
The morning was quite a funny one. I wake and went to on my PS2!!!! Then my father sitting on the sofa say one sentence, "early morning only know how to play game." This sentence really make me -______-|||......Waaa liew....holiday le.Awww..... And so in the noon while playing dota, my mother say stop playing computer game. I just finished my assesment now holiday liao and she remark that drawing only. Ehh, hello?!?!? Drawing?? Talk like so easy, never see how some people break down while doing assesment. Never see how diffcult it is to draw and design. One sided talk.....only assume sia. Make me unhappy.....ayioooo...
One thing I have to say is that. Under different circumstances you had to stead with that person. Imagine that there is a girl who alway cut her wrist to attract you. She cant stopped herself and out of kindness, you give her a little hope by steading with her when there is really no choice. So you have feeling for someone in your school and one of your best friend knew about it. You are being blacklist by your best friend which you had no idea. However you want to break off with that girl for fate bring you to the one you like. Yet what will happen to the girl that keep cutting her wrist?
To me, this kind of problem must counsel with girl parent. The parent will definitely bring her to counselling center. Oh well, Good luck to that person.
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 10:35 AM on Thursday, November 22, 2007
My mouse for the Mac had applied a vacation at Constance house for dunno how long which there no contract to be exact. So I guess I need to relax before getting the mouse back and start to study again.
The reaction of a person as well as his word and action reflect his inner self. I make mistake myself unknowingly and I do not seek apology from any. I rather seek it myself. My face is born to be what my parent give. It is pointless to say my face is alway black just because my face is quite emotional. So that one part of disadvantage for emo people. Whatever it is, stay positive as usual. =)
Sense someone with ill intention and give me some creep. Run again?
Applying for B and C camp. However have no idea who to ask to register. Plus the T-shirt I dont even know I can wear anot sia. Ayiaaaaa........Jialat....
It is hard to pleased everyone and what worst is when they make use of this point. No matter how hard life goes, we do see the light through the cloud. If there is knife alway stabbing you behind. Take it silently and wait for the truth.
If only there is fairytale, I wish it can also happen to me too. Let it happen to those who deserve it.....it may not be now but as long for the rest of my life. I am willingly to submit and use my life to stay beside her and serve her. =)
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 12:06 AM on Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Remember the meaning of love and remember the meaning of oath.
Best wishes XD
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 12:17 AM on Sunday, November 18, 2007
While I awake from my slumber. Inner beauty colour of some finally can be seen. Though with pain and joy, they mark the point of realization. Things turn to a naught with lesson that taught at the right time. Dont believe or dont accept is the flaw.
Trust too much trust too easily make life harder. Being cheat or to cheat, the cycle still remain. Heart seen to bend in along with the mind.
Another side story
With the heart totally sinking in the sand pit. Darkness and cold engulf him. Protecting him from the warmth and the heat of the scorching sun. Having to understand the need of two different strength. Heart finally understand the nature of law. The law that he know it will cost him his future and his own life.
Crawling out in the night and sober himself. Through decades, a small stream of river was spotted around there. Slowly it become a river. Creating relief and joy to the nearby village. Heart must know that happiness must begin from sadness and suffering. With his continuous sadness and pain within him, his tear will be the saviour of many.
It will take sometime for anyone to find the cause of the stream. When that moment arrived, heart cannot stay and have to wander away for shelter. Heart take a glimpse of the nearby village during the night. Few children splashing the water with their parent on the straw mat enjoying the pure angelic moon from the never reaching skies.
And so every night, Heart will hop in a sand dung and continue to observe the people. Heart do not understand why everyone are happy. Heart do not know love. He do not know what is happiness. He only know he was left in this place. During the day, he sleep under the cool iron bed of sand. He will drink and chill.
That fateful night while heart continue to observe the human. He cry again for he want to know what is happiness and love. A streak of light suddenly descend in front of him. After a few week, the river dried up. Villagers check out the the cause of problem only to realise that there wasnt any water source nearby at all. They will never know that it is heart that actually help them through these period of time. They will also never know the existance and the ending of heart.....
View: All of us are Heart. Different starting, plot, climax and ending. What is happiness and love in life? Ask yourself what is the meaning of both? What the ending you expect? Does thing turn out to be the ways you expected? Do you know your action and words affect other?
-Each object refer to respective exp of our life.
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 10:51 AM on Saturday, November 10, 2007
Love cannot be love when act under different situation and due to some circumstances. One may not have the confidence when another was high on it peak. However dont give up hope and have your sincere heart to touch the sky. It most probbly wont come but it`s better than nothing.
Alteration alter not only oneself but also the rest. Each indiuval find alterative to keep love by their sides even to underhand mean. So much for love that poison the mind of one easily.
I still wish to continue watching you even to the last minutes. Till that fateful moment , I will alway believe myself in you. Words may drift us apart but swim back again and again. No love taste like chocolate make of gold and filled with elixer. All should know love is not easy to take and give. Love is not trade and pure entertainment. Love is commitment. The moment you had someone by your side, it is love. It is your job and your duty to live and be part of each other live. Taking care each other mentally and physically till the edges of the universe.
100% happiness come from pain 50% itself. No pain no gain. If there is no pain or suffering then you cannot find the truth of happiness itself. Love is not what you think or assume. Love is what both felt and act accordingly together in our unsecure and mystery future.
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 7:08 AM on Friday, November 09, 2007
Please ignore that few people who play prank on me. Honestly speaking we must forgive them for they are just a child. They haven mature so please forgive them plus I also haven who are they. Dont suddenly offer help, I mean we all are already matured. Hahahaha....
Hi Kid, Maybe to you is fun and exciting. Maybe your life is better than mine and even you think my life is full of crap but I assure you that all life being in this universe face the same judgment regardless of your race or reglion. This blog was meant for passerby and nice people who just to read about logic of life and my daily exp. I understand that you are lonely and you need attention. Howver the way you choose will make everyone dislike you more as you can see that actually quite a number of my friend are finding you. Hahaha, I do not care since the tagboard is closed and you can no longer disturb the peace here. So the moment you read finish, you slap yourself 3times. 1 from your mother who give life to you 1 from your father who work to support your family and 1 from me for you had not shown any slight of respect in my Virtual world.
Blog Reader and Blogger should know the basic rule that you do not play prank or type down any racist remark. You believe making me angry will make you happy but you are too shallow if you think it work. Be a man even you are an aqua, you are still a she-male. =)
Closing a tagboard does not end my destiny with people out there. Instead there is a new approach of destiny outside. I already discussed with Yee 2month ago about closing down my tagboard. It is not a surprise so everyone thx for Tagging especially those last minute come see show and offer Help. Haha......
Whatever goes will return. Today you make someone angry or unhappy, it will come back to you sooner or later. You create unhappiness or negative mental effect on other, You will take back double of the pain you cause to other. You may approach Bomoh, medicine man and those priest who are skill in Art. The sin of one is alway build by one. So try to harm me more and you will get feel the same effect within a time limit. =)
I`m sorry kid, u got to do better than this. I sure will place 1 fist on your face the moment you show yourself. Dont ask why for you deserve it. The moment you say my life is full of crap. Then explain to me that if I am one then all also suffer crap stuff in our lives.
You try being knocked down by vehicle, jumping down from building, cutting your wrist, crying everynight alone, sleeping outside in the street, drinking dirty water and consume stale food, try to be stabbed by other in the middle of the night, being murdered for no reason , being raped, being robbed, breaking off with your dearest, getting into jail, being isolated by everyone, worrying about supporting family, over working and had no time to spend with families.
Are these crap??? YOU CALL THESE CRAP? Spare a thought for the people around you, everyone of us have to handle crap stuff daily whether it can be at home or outside. It can happen with family, friends and colleages. You see, next time when you say something, think carefully and spare a thought.
Thx for reminding me of my goal. I wish you good luck dude. Dont keep faling =)
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 12:27 AM on Wednesday, November 07, 2007
Even I didnt disappoint othere, I already disappointed myself.
Think of setting up a new blog to put name of people with remarkable character. That night till now I still really admire Xue yang. 8 years of feeling toward Mei ru, I mean they graduted from the school 4yrs already. He still buy present and put at Mei ru house there. Although I think he should hand it to Mei ru personally but due since he is too shy. It really such a waste plus Mei ru already had a bf 2yrs ago.
Li xin is getting married and the banquet will be held at Tian Hui on 17 Nov. =)) Come and think of it, some of the brothers and sister have already married and really hardly contact. Ayiaaaaa......really miss the good old day. Lao Da really clever, save money and held banquet in malaysia!!! Save money until like that..... =P
Skin still peeling when I suppose all skin should have peeled off by itself. Now my skin like not nice liao.....eeeeeek....
Remaining work,
Design drawing need pic reference for colour plus drawing and colouring( Lucky can finish in 1day)
Ad design need to do sketches and redo some of the mock up.( 1day enough)
Graphic design require style book(going to do later) Need plenty of sketch plus haven print out my research.( 1day)
Flash haven colour and draw a nice storyboard, still at 5sec!!! (ROAR!!!) write up on the way soon with research haven really go find and print out(1day)
Visual study, I think there is a problem with the stand. I dont think it can stand properly, I ask peng yu for help to make a stand. Calling help from my friends and I really wish to finish the tree within 3hours provide got all materia and tools needed. Need to redo the presentation board.
1week more to go.......Gogogo!!!
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 4:14 AM on Tuesday, November 06, 2007
To ( u suck and HALO)
No one is perfect. If you are then you are infallible. None dare to claim for all have to face death. Everyone have to face the karma of born, live, sick and dead itself. Who you are is not important. When I speak of someone, I care. If you are the one, you be happy for I care. If you do not listen to other and keep on going your way. You wont realise but you will understand when the day come. Oh, please dont let me know who are you for you will know why.(I already knew who the person**) =)
It is kinda cowardly act. Please dont do that again. I do not know who will have the last laugh. I am still a beginner in my life, I do not and never consider myself to a great or perfect person. It is not how I am what I think I am but it is other that make me what I am. Explain to me, Just because I act all the yr in my life in school mean I am forever like that? Hmmm, think your own way. I would care so much and I will be happy if you are wasting time to play prank on me. =)
Be happy when one speak bad about you for you learn,
Be happy when one left you alone for they want you to be indpendent
Bong bong for Yu jing and Hiutung. Remembering how they start with a struggle when Dickson flared up and make trouble for both of them. I still remember how each of their personality fit each other just nice , how loving both of them are when together. One my buddy and one my brother, I do not know what to say. I did ask Yu jing and the reason is really very simple. Dumbfounded, I sat on my chair thinking about it. 2.5 yrs is not an easy task. Considering the time, effort and money in for the sake of the one in your heart. You have done your best. I mean for both of them.
Very wasted....Haizzz.....it so sad to see them brkup. Zzzzz
Lao Da getting marry le!!! He is marrying to a gal Y*. Funny fellow, he brk up with his previous gf after stead for 7yr plus and stead with Y* for 1-2yrs plus and getting marry this coming Dec. Alamak, why go malaysia sia. I no passport to attend, Arrgghhhh!!! Stead for 7yr plus but brk off in the end, sound abit of irony.Hahaha
Tonight meet alot of people. Si han represent Rp in WCG!!! Piang, talking to him really make me giggle. Still the same, as cheerful as ever and thx for sending me off. Met Edmund and went to canal to relax during evening. Quite sad that he decided to go ITE next yr because the course he took cannot continue just because he fail his 3rd and 4th exam. Wasted one yr of youth, play somemore. Hahaha, bro you must keep your word. I know I fat liao and you are slimmer liao. So relax man. Hahahahaha...... Met Roy too. 5 Di, never change, he is still living well. I`m quite pleased to meet him. Chat a very short moment, they board the bus and went off to lot1.
Around 7pm plus meet Guo bin and Xue yang!!! Long lost friend!!! Omg, cant believe we can go out and chit chat. Peng yu drive us to Ntuc and then lock the lorry with the key inside. -_-||.....Rofl!!! However we went to Canal and slack. Exchanging info of how everyone is living now and who got marry and what funny stuff and blah blah blah. Hahahahaha....
Cut short for now. Tonight I must thx everyone of you for the conversation. I will definitely contact everyone when I have the time. Proposal of chalet is good but the problem lie in gathering the number of people left. The gathering for Media bytes is still quite a question in my head. I wonder where the spot for the gathering, I want to make it short and fun for everyone to share their life-exp in their poly and other school. I may have holdiay but it seen the rest of the poly will be having their exam soon. Tiaozzz....
Respect yourself first before you want people to respect you. Thank
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 12:49 AM on Saturday, November 03, 2007
Everyone have their own exp even not they have the knowledge however the amount of knowledge will have to depend on their own lifetime exp with other.
Counsel is good, even you get unwanted answer or advice. They serve the main purpose and that is helping you to get out. =)
Come to think of mine, it sound quite a dead track. I do not know but I really believe. I dont care whether it can be fake or anything else. This is something I cannot let go. Maybe I dont have enough capabilities to handle it but I will keep proving myself till the last minute where the destiny of us get seperated.
As I observe, it seen there are people who are good in calculation. I want to work along with them to improve myself. Well, hopefully it can happen sooner or later.
That christmas tree will create quite a nusiance if it is to be left alone......Aww
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 12:30 AM on Wednesday, October 31, 2007
I dont want to care or else someone will say kapo. I got enough through my sec school life plus everyone is in tertiary education. The rise and fall of one is up to each indivual. If you dont want to fight your way up then you might give up your dream and your goal. Even you hold on it, you never reach and you will be struggling there forever.
Not I want to complain, Gaffy really sometime make me very disappointed. He hack care and he just too lazy. What the point of coming to school and ask me for work when the lecturers mention that you never hand in your work? You told me you will study!!! Dont give assurance when you are not a man of word. Aaron is nice guy but then he is another one gone case. I dunno what is he thinking but I think he sure fail this semseter. Haizzz.....
Taking picture now when we need to show everything FINISHED ** by next week?? Still can say got time? Beside Yan,gab,joe and me, I can see the rest of the guy jialat one. Still chill and slack? Hallo!!! This week is trial print liao!!! WTF!!! Not showing design!!!
Ad design, I make sure I can finish designing by this thursday and find her. The newspaper is a big problem for those who are not sure.
Design drawing this week is to be show in computer and let miss lye help you to combine into junior page. Not go there draw and colour!!!
Flash, It can be easy and diffcult depend on each person concept board with the character and effect involved. However there is a need for a work folio to be sufficient***
Pc leong the logo is easy but need quite an amount of research and more in sketches and development to allow the accesser a better understanding. Thus this is one tricky part.
Visual study, This sub sure send all rush like mad. The gathering of resources require vast amount of time, effort and money. Plus when it come to building, the logical effect of physic come into place. Those who are bad in physic or calculation will get a hard time building it.
Presentation is very important!!! Do a nice and neat work. Organise work accordingly.
Designing is not about how strong the visual and typo can be. It is the concept!!! I can see someone really jialat liao.
I am blur and all the times I do. I enjoy this personality myself and those who apperciate it. However I dont slack all the times and chill as and when I feel like.
Dont bother to say someone who dont even listen to you. Words you say is the same as saying it in your heart. Let them taste their own fruit. It nt like I gonna care but it is them who dont give a damn.
OVERALL ytd night I come to think of new ideas. Work with those who are hardworking than who are chiller. Thx to guo wei during the conversation too about the work efficienty.
skin peel bit by bit.........can my heart skin peel and become better? 0o!!
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 11:10 AM on Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Damn upset over myself, say want to work but in the end I go slack or waste my time playing. I sense that time is indeed short and I have to discipline myself. However I still get distracted, Imao. There still some hope left, ROAR!!! Hmmm, Sure I face one big hardy time just because holiday is coming.
Helping people is like offering seat to stranger. It is not trade nor any self gain stuff. Offer the seat to someone who need it mor than you is the same as helping those who ask for it. Even the the seat is offered to those who never ask for it. Dont have to expect any reward. It just like helping oneself. If passenger around ask you why do you do that and say are you stupid or something just ignore them. Just be yoursef in all situation. If a person want to offer seat to nearby passenger, you dont have to say that person stupid or idiot. That is because you never know that there are people who are tired already even their face do not show. You can choose to stand or sit down but which one will you prefer?
Another example is to offer drink to traveller who passby your house. They may not ask for it but it is a sign of concern. If they complain about the sanity of the water perhap you can tell that these are the people who do not appericate thing around them. They may not say thank you and left quietly. However you dont need to hear such word to negate your deed. Wish them bon voyage is enough. If a person refuse the offer then let it be, dont have to force them. You have to know the reason why you have to be kind to all. Even all soul in this world taken you for granted, dont give and do more merit for yourself and someday someone will apperciate your kindness. Even there no one, do it for yourself.
This is what I think of, even that person is lazy just do it since it just a trival stuff. However the moment they went out to the real world, they will learn the lesson. Everything need time.
I sense it quite well the pressure given in the class by anyone eye. Those who only care for their own friend or group in class should be more social toward the rest. One class few tribe, it gonna be war if anything bad happen. I already exp some of the hidden mental war wages between different group. Reading people mind sometime is good and bad at times.
If I have to be alone till I graduted then I have no choice for my life is my life not on other. I`m quite tired of slacking and slacking. Maybe maybe however what will it be??
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 11:07 PM on Sunday, October 28, 2007
So many exciting stuff but yet too tiring to write.
These is what I got physically,
Sunburnt!!
Insomina!!
Jelly leg!!
(Mentally)
Excitment, joy, dazed,
Overall- Hyperactive mode!!!
Thank alot for my brothers again!!!
I only get to give a small cake for chen ming!!! Awwww!!!
Yea!!! I done a great job in entertaining the rest during the sport day. XD
Oh ya, one thing for sure. I really only dream of taking her hand or hugging her not any further. So dont anyhow how. =P
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 2:02 AM on
Not everything is impossible, maybe confidence help alot. It just differ on whether you willing to take the risk anot. Somebody finally got a bf, not going to mention who but then it just make me grin. Hopefully she pick with care this time round. Nobody is happy to see anyone brking up again and again. =)
Seen like tse hwee got quite a number of admirer!!! Too bad she my sister, now and forever!!! Hehex.....That the pros you get for being nice looking and attractive and great personality. =P
I want to attend the 10days mediation course in st john island!!! However that is during the 9th week of school and I fear that there will be submission on that day. T_T!!!.....Ahhhhh, it so sad. I want to continue to learn how to expand the rythm of my mindset. Thinking of no communciation and only peace there really make my mouth water. It not like I not going to miss everyone especially the one that trap my heart. Since holiday is coming , there is nothing I can do about it. It not whether I want to or not, is I cannot. However I believe action speak better than word. So I will still be myself throughout the time. Yup, thx xiao mei for that sentence. Well, kinda of hardly chat with her le. Hope sometime can ask her out wor.
Maybe I shouldnt talk so much but then it wont be like me. My action is alway the opposite way of my thinking. Maybe I should be careful about that. =)
Jereld really never sleep enough, it abit of heart pain to see his eye patch so big and dark. Haizzz, he big enough and I really hope he can take care of himself. Maybe to this point, I start missing Roy. Those were indeed the days of being brother toward each other though sometime I never respect his decision but it definitely for his good. There are times when great friend have to face seperation. No choice for that life. Even I cry all my life just because I cannot be with the one I love greatly , there wont be any miracle. =O
Chen ming birthday is 2days ago. I feel damn bad for unable to celebrate with him. Sian, my 4th brother yet still hardly contact. Sometime I just feel pasieh sia, awwwww......At least he still treat me as his brother. =) I`m willing to spend my time with you and all my families together to make up myself. If Jason is counted in the circle during the secondary school days, he is the 8th. Hmmm, now only hardly mixed with roy and yu hang. life still go on!!!
Birthday maybe not important but other do remember for they care. So be happy for someone care for you wor!!! XD Anyone can sms me to sms to them happy birthday if no one send their wishing to you. It will be a FREE SERVICE!!! XD
I feel like asking Kairu how much she will cost for teaching english. Oh mine, she is one of the fiercest sister I have. Either my brain turn into a supercomputer or else I have to ask someone to teach me english. The best is FREE!!! ROAR!!!!! XD
Ayiaaaaaa.........
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 12:30 AM on Wednesday, October 24, 2007
I found some of the lyric for some of the japanese song I like. Sharing session!!
-=Rahxephon=-
Even so, what can I possibly do?
What can I do to change this tiny box-garden reality?
I haven't even lived half of my life;
rebelling against, and embracing others -
These experiences are being tattooed onto my subconscious.
When I was stood on the edge of a cliff,
"Adversity" grabbed my arm,
and for the first time, I could see where I was.
Towards a wider field; towards somewhere deeper, larger...
I'm just heading towards a world which I can't even imagine.
Tell me, what is the definition of "strength"?
Does it mean to hurt yourself,
or perhaps to throw yourself away to protect someone who you should protect?
The gazelles in the savanna raise clouds of dust;
they have no choice but to remain standing in the wind, till the day they die.
Humans keep walking onward,
just in order to keep on living.
They proceed, while still decoding an incomplete piece of data.
It looks like I've already walked out of the desert of my beginnings, alone.
I want to remain as myself till the day I turn to ash.
Where did I come from, long ago?
Where will I go, in the far future?
Being thrown around without knowing; time will come to an end before I realize it.
It looks like I've already walked out of the desert of my beginnings, alone.
I want to remain as myself till the day I turn to ash.
When I was stood on the edge of a cliff,
"Adversity" grabbed my arm,
and for the first time, I could see where I was.
Towards a wider field; towards somewhere deeper, larger...
I'm just heading towards a world which I can't even imagine.
I want to know about myself...
This is the 1984 song of Macross THE MOBILE FORTRESS.
-=Do you remember love?=-
Right now, I hear your voice
saying "Come here to me."
Just when it seemed loneliness had beaten me.
Right now, I see you
walking over to me.
I close my eyes and wait for you to come.
Till yesterday, it seemed filled only with tears.
But now my heart is
* Do you remember? The time when our eyes first met?
Do you remember? The time when our hands first touched?
That was the very first time I set out on the journey of love.
I love you so.
Right now, I can feel your gaze
though you're not here with me.
And in my body a warmth begins to glow.
Right now, I believe in your love,
so won't you please
watch over me from so far away?
Till yesterday it seemed filled only with tears.
Now the world is...
Repeat *
** I'm not alone anymore
now that you're here with me.
Repeat *
Repeat **
Another will be Macross7, the anime is quite boring and senseless at time. The main objective of the anime is to show that war is not the solution and song could be one of the approach.
-= Try again=-
* If only one rock 'n' roll song
Echoes into tomorrow
There won't be anything to keep you
from the distant morning glow
In the embattled sky,
an aurora descends
In the beaten night,
You're not alone
Now and forever
With only a single word
The future is decided
Our beat is
A shining diamond
Into the true sky into the true sky
Our life shining into the sky
FLY AWAY-FLY AWAY
Let's rise up
TRY AGAIN-TRY AGAIN
Wave goodbye to yesterday
FLY AWAY-FLY AWAY
Believe with all your heart
TRY AGAIN-TRY AGAIN
You'll be loved tomorrow
Only one mistake
Can ruin your chance
But, in the middle of storms, don't avert your eyes
C'mon, over and over again, c'mon, over and over again,
You can surely start over
FLY AWAY-FLY AWAY
Let's rise up
TRY AGAIN-TRY AGAIN
Don't ever give up
FLY AWAY-FLY AWAY
Believe with all your heart
TRY AGAIN-TRY AGAIN
Make the sun rise again
* refrain
This is the opening theme of Macross7. Although you may wonder what does blue moon mean , you may consider to have look of the opening theme to understand more about it.
-=Seventh Moon=-
When I look up at the purple panorama
of the galactic highway,
a shooting star
passes through my heart.
In the sleepless city,
my heartbeat accelerates once more
when I wish for
the unseen future.
That melody I hear...
That mysterious voice won't let me go.
Please tell me, seventh moon,
why my heart's so anxious
Are you taking me somewhere?
Palely shaking, seventh moon,
to the echoing rhythm,
I'm just searching for an answer to the maddening dance.
[Guitar Solo]
The silver dome
catches the reflection of the sunny sky
as I try to figure out
my dried-up heart.
That melody I hear...
The unshakeable power revives me.
Please answer, seventh moon,
the riddle of this power.
Am I chasing some kind of rainbow?
Dissolving in the darkness, seventh moon,
time passes by
so that some day I can continue the dream I had lost.
As long as the parade continues,
aim for a new tomorrow.
[Guitar Solo]
Please tell me, seventh moon,
why my heart's so anxious
Are you taking me somewhere?
Palely shaking, seventh moon,
to the echoing rhythm,
I'm just searching for an answer to the maddening dance.
Please answer, seventh moon,
the riddle of this power.
Am I chasing some kind of rainbow?
Dissolving in the darkness, seventh moon,
time passes by
so that some day I can continue the dream I had lost.
Please tell me, seventh moon,
why my heart's so anxious
Are you taking me somewhere?
Palely shaking, seventh moon,
to the echoing rhythm,
I'm just searching for an answer to the maddening dance.
The next few will be From Angel Heart. Although I did recommend louis only but he did not like it due to the fact it not really action packed. I like the storyline and the meaning of it. =)
Opening theme of Angel heart...
-=My destiny=-
Say goodbye
to those nights where I got tired from crying alone
Say Hello
My Heart begins to melt in the warm sunlight
this feeling that thinks of you strongly
changes into the strength leading to tomorrow
You’re My Destiny
the feeling for you trace down my cheeks as tears
and it overflows, unable to convey it into words
Say my name
putting my wish on the star shooting across the autumn sky
Say your name
so that that name doesn’t turn into a mere memory
no matter how close I feel you are
why does this loneliness just increases?
You’re My Destiny
I’ll find you even when I’m reborn so
please don’t forget that we loved each other
ah if I loved you
more than now, more than this
this heart of mines will break...
Is this Destiny...?
You’re My Destiny
the feeling for you trace down my cheeks as tears
and it overflows, unable to convey it into words
Cause I believe I’ve found my Destiny
-=Battlefield of love(2nd opening theme)=-
I stand alone in the passing crowd
I look up and see the moon I can’t reach
Even if I reach out my hand, I won’t be rewarded
With love and truth, but for that very reason
Now I want you to love me
The way you want to
Even if we reach the end of the earth
This love has no end
I want to keep sleeping like this
Wrapped in your arms
It doesn’t matter what scars I have
I want to carve out proof
That if I’m with you
I can turn them into strength
Even if we don’t have the future that was promised to us
We can’t turn back, we can’t go back now
Now I want to love you
With everything I have
Even if we eventually end up at the end of the world
This love has no end
I want to keep protecting you
Wrapped in my chest
Now I want you to love me
The way you want to
Even if we reach the end of the earth
This love has no end
I want to keep sleeping like this
Now I want to love you
With everything I have
Even if we eventually end up at the end of the world
This love has no end
I want to keep protecting you
Wrapped in my chest
Well, that all.....Peng yu now here with me le...time to do work!!! 10PM le...lolx..I feel more like sleeping XD
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 9:46 PM on Sunday, October 21, 2007
I hardly get the concept from the brief. I really feel it is my english that give me problem. Most likely I will make use of the holiday to get one of my sister to teach me. I know this kind of thing maybe abit late but one thing for is that there is really a need for it. Ayiaaaaa......ayiaaa ayiaaaa!!!!
It good to feel guilty but it is useless when you know but you do nothing. Woot, hope when that person read he know who I am talking about. XD
Thx the classmates of their concept that generate new idea for me. I cant think out of a box just because I never do it before. Maybe some wont like it but whatever it is, I just grabbing the essence. Hehex
Yup ytd is Sarah birthday and so is Hui keng birthday. I wont say anything out since Sarah mention that her birthday is nothing. =) The meal is nice cause it FREE!!! XD ooop.......imao!!! Thx for the treat my brother and so my daughter. Hehex....too bad la. I really no money sia. -_-||
I take Mrt so many times and this is the first time I get stuck in the middle of the 2door. Everyone rush into the train and then I was lagging behind due the heavy bag and my camera bag. So while I was in the middle of the 2 door. The outside metal door and the inner door just close on me and my bag. I still can wriggle my way in the train with other people all looking at me. Say isnt that some kind of entertain?Hahahaha, I know some keep on looking at me grinning or giggling away. Well, kinda of lame huh? XD
So Me and Jason went to chen boon house to pass jun jie ez link card and Jereld and Sarah take bus home. Chen boon leg seen to be better and he still playing game happily sia. Hahaha......on the way my left wrist was hit by bird shit!?!?! -_-
Send Jason to his void deck and return home. Stuck outside the house for quite sometime because my parent lock the wooden door from inside. -______-|||...sweat*
After bathing, rushed to ping siong house. Hao long when got miss me sia? He got ming si what?? EEeeeek!!! I dun need him to miss me!!!! Vomit** Jkjk...hahaha...Went there to attend the so call tutorial and the guide line. Ping siong guide me on how to do graphic in 3D. It seen that perpective is very important with the shadow and lining. Hmmmm, show both of them the flash I want to research during my coming holiday. Got this address from ping siong and see that friend work. Totally impressed and left me full of question mark!!!
Left ping siong house after 2am plus and tata!!! End of that day!!!
Soemthing to say seriously, disease just fall on anyone anywhere and anytime. However it is so fucking unfair to fall on people that are so kind. Mentioning about how chen boon father pass away from cancer sometime make me feel like crying. I still remember the last time I see uncle at MRT station with the rest of the guys. He saw us and simile so happily and he seen to be fit with no problem. However within 2week, he just pass away. So fucking shit, I dun want to accept it nor want to believe it. I strongly believe in my judging of people and I dun understand why would such a nice guy die so early. He still have to suffer the effect of cancer before death. If god can be so mercy why cant just help to relieve the pain before his death.....
From the exp until now, one thing we have to understand is that life is definitely unfair or fair due to each indvuial mindset. Haizzzz.....I want to do my part to take care of my parent to show them how much I love them. I will definitely wait for that chance.
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 9:06 AM on Saturday, October 20, 2007
Please go to crunchyroll and watch KOGEPAN!!! XD
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 10:18 PM on Monday, October 15, 2007
Went to paradiz center to play lan together. I play dota after 3months of untouching it!!! Wow....luckily my skill still there. Hahahah....
And so there goes one day. It ust so hard to imagine that lives is passing by faster and faster. I totally agree with huat, we just dunno how on earth we spent our time. Even we look back, there no time to regret or spend our tears to flow.
I like this lyrics very much.
-battlefield of love-
Standing still in the moving crowd,
I look up and see the unreachable moon hovering in the sky,
Even I`ll reach out to you, neither love or truth,
will be requnited, so that is why,
I want you to love me the way you can,
even if we reach the edge of the earth,
this love is endless,
I want to embrace and continue protecting you,
THe lyric is not completed and I cant get the full lyrics.
Each day is making me more and more nervous until this evening when I went out for dinner alone. The vast sky with the sun setting down clam my anxiety. I am grafeful for that.
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 7:37 PM on Sunday, October 14, 2007
Got the apple during wed night and start to configurate the system. It`s simple but I dont like some of it`s stuff and I have alot of trouble opening and closing the program using short cut. I do not know the short cut making me totally headache.RAWR!!!! So I use com and apple to msn, finally able to access 2 acc at one time le. Yeaaaaaa.....seen quite a number of pple who haven add my new acc -_-||
Get to chat with kl about the flash I want to do. It very hard and you need a lot of action script to have it animation to the best is what he told me when I show him the webbie of what I wanna do. Oh god........
Pat told the class that there will be essay onward for 3rd yr. Power, I got problem in english and then you tell me got essay. Would you like to read singish for my essay and entertain you with my essay for that whole day? Imao.....I gonna find a english teacher real soon if that essay stuff is confirm. I try to print screen the flash stuff but then I dunno the short cut for mac and in the end went to another computer lab to do it. What a waste of time.....
Get to have lunch with David and peng yu together. I like the conversation with David, there are just some points I toally agree with him. Went to play CS with the guys after that which I actually want to do my research for Pc leong. Grrrr...what to do?? TUU Duuu tuuuu......In the end went there didnt really got anything to show her although the lesson really funny.Hahahaha..
Well,today morning lesson is quite relax and I can forget to do my style research which make me speechless. I remember everything but I just forget that very thing which is the style research. Really nothing to say sia.......why keep on forget sia.....grrrr.....
I enjoy the chat with Da jie ytd night. Yea.....da jie jia u!!! XD
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 1:17 PM on Friday, October 12, 2007
Through these times I faced, nothing is as hard as this. So much for living until now I just cant balance myself well. It a shame to tell them what I really now when my father tell me study harder. It a shame to see my brother pushing himself so hard and me standing behind him far far away. It just make me jealous of all my friends my sisters and brothers of their lives while I am nothing but just a loner which I think I am one. Sometime I just call someone to chat with to let me pour out what I want and I feel better but just for a while. Sitting down along the shore which swept away my sorrow. Who know that whenever I left the park or my friends, all the unwanted memories just return to haunt me. So stuck in my life, I dunno but I just look so lost. I just want to run away from here and from everyone. I dunno what am I doing but it so hard to pretend to everyone that nothing happen. I not like those people who are popular and I am only wanted when there a chance for me of being used except for a few. Hope? All the hope I have seen to dimished from my world. It just like how the sun had burnt itself out. If I say I dun need any warmth then I definitely send myself to grave earlier than expected.
Everyone have a reason to live. If I still live then the only thing that pull me to my sense will be those around supporting me especially my parent. So I might as well say I am a coward which like to forget everything. It so crazy to believe that I was being depised and being misunderstood in class. I dunno!!! I feel down with the grip of darkness clinging my leg with my hand grabbing the rock on the cliff. If you read now It could be maybe I abit depress and I just want to type how I feel. You can dun bother to read if you feel it`s disturbing.
It hard to action when you know. It not I cant do what everyone say. For the god sake I just want everyone to be happy and then all kind of irony stuff happen. What happen? Why does this kind of happen? Give me a pair of wing and I will go confront god on the games they played on me. Pain pain pain....that cannot be compared to the rest.
Trying my best to do yet alway have the opposite happening of what I expect. This is so unfair but everything that happened cannot be undone. So lost for words right now and I can just imagine I am standing on the edge of a hill shouting away all my anger and fustration in the clear blue sky. Trying fly a kite and then cut it away when it is flying at it peak. I want to be like that...freedom!!!
I wont run away from the problems but it will be a tough nut to crack. Time to be better for tomorrow!!! JA!!
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 10:57 PM on Tuesday, October 09, 2007
Sometime you wonder is it possible to cut open your heart and throw it away in the sea. Thing that seen so important turned out to be the only thing I do not want.
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 11:20 AM on
Human are getting extinct........when will it be hamster turn? XD
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 1:35 AM on
Guo xiong sms me on friday night!!! He still in camp!!! XD During the night time meet Jasper, huat,jeffrey and ah di. Eat supper together and talk alot. Hmmmm, I can roughly what jeff anf jasper want to say. I dunno but then I think I can do it. Thx alot jasper, I didnt I was given so many chances anD I may still have the chance. Cool....haha....Jason nvr meet me up. So boring..... =/
Sat afternoon want to go book the basic driving theory one but then went to take photograph instead. Went to peng yu house to learn playing piano, S.E.N.S wish is quite simply and I like it although sound abit different from the mp3 one. Peng yu then play S.E.N.S kirara which is really fantastic!!! Nice music sia....Grrr...I really regret for not learning in my childhood. I just cant understnad why am I so naughty when small.....sob sob.... =(
Went to help peng yu with his funiture stuff and went to the factory and saw alot of stuff. I really feel like stealing some for the Visual study the chirstmas tree. Hahahah...jk la....went together with piggy and penguin and then went to grandma house for the camera memory card. Ask xiao shu for the loaction of the pic he took. Then everyone set off during 4.30pm. The weather is really bloody hot sia.....woah!!
When reach the place, I forget the name le. haha....Anyway there got nice monkeys!!! We went to the park there and I start taking pictures. Take until 7pm like that then went for a brk and return home. Hmmmm......it quite nice but then too cloudy that disappoint me. Well, lucky kctan mention is in grayscale. All I need is just to brighten the image and grayscale it. Overrall, I feel it is quite romantic down there. The view is pretty nice and beautiful, quiet and peacful. Omg!!! So lovely down there!!! XD
Reach back home not long later, sit and play all the night. Hahahaah....Well, I not quite what is the situation of my parent. I really dunno and I dun wish to know too. I cannot make any decision too for I am a child that all. It lke parent in cold war and I really dunno how to talk to both my parent. Haizzz.....Bong liao bong liao..... =/
Today is really tiring....woa..... XD
-I will be more responsible in future and therefore believe me once again-
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 11:01 PM on Saturday, October 06, 2007
Few days ago, my left eye keep on tweaking non-stop for 3days. During the 4th day, while going to lesson I walk out the door and almost step on a pretty big greenish beautiful moth which just fly directly under my leg. I stared for a moment. I do not know what to say but then GOd bless.
Visit the aunties again, thx for the tips. I understand things cant be force, I`m just doing my part. Praying and wishing which is what I alway do. Lilly alway want free stuff one... -_______-||....I no money to buy chocolate!!! Really!!! LOLX!!! New yr will buy one...steady!!!
You are the brightest star that illuminate the heart of people. Thou you attract many ye you await only one. Whoever you choose, it definitely happiness that follow after your decision. Shine brightly in the skies.............
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 11:15 PM on Wednesday, October 03, 2007
Ytd night attend the photography lesson and was being taught how to develop photo in darkroom. It was definitely fun with everyone screaming and shouting for the sake of fun. Hahaha.....I still haven actually learn how to print. -____-|| Ad design was sure shoick cause I read the brief wrongly!!! Power, make myself pasieh...haha....
Get to ask idea about photography from xiao shu. Get alot of idea and learn several new what to do and what you shouldnt And what you should take note* Now I just realise how big the difference of my standard with him. Now then realise sg photgraphy club not a club for newbie -_-||.....I want to get that cert also!! Thx alot xiao shu!! =D
Wei yan kor kor call me ytd night telling me to go have a look at the Mac laptop on thursday afternoon. Weeee!!! I almost completely forget about him. Ooopx!!! =X lucky mother got tell him about it cause I also not quite sure about computer espicially laptop like mac stuff. Get to see him again!! XD
I thought SD is alrealy the only one who like to use vugalrities but then the champion tittle should belong to constance alrealy. While walking home with her, at bugis there. There was this passerby who happen to knock into her bag accidentally from my observant. Then it start, she angerily hurl some vulagrities at the passerby who still continuing her walk. Wow, I was being stunned for at least 5minutes. My mind just go blank like that. So many ah lian I know, she can be even fiercer than those ah lian. Waaaa.....make me nothing to say. Power.....wonder what will happen to her kid. Oh my god!!! =X That why I scare gal who are fierce......Runn!!
Jin lai have a chubby kid who is 3yrs old alrealy. Weeeee!!!! So cute!!!! I really just want to go back to time and be his little brother. Arrgghhh...I bet alot of people sure miss him. Awwwww........hope to meet again My brother. Wish you happy family and a bright child!!! =D
Get to know Phyllis is getting marry soon although the date is not confirm. Woa, she now only 17 if not wrong, pretty interesting right? =X Although it is heard to be shotgun marriage but then that person is willingly to take up the responsibility. As a friend of her, of course we can only wish her all the best. That guy seen to be ok fellow. 4month is really really short but they dont have chioce too I guess. God know and may the god bless them too..... =)
-=(There no need for word, the smile you have give me strength for tomorrow)=-
Well, I just want to be by your side that all!!! I feel contended but that day still seen far far away
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 1:10 PM on Tuesday, October 02, 2007
I get to understand abit more about presenting work and I know my standard is really suck to the core!!! Waaaaa....I really want to learn from him. He mention that previously nafa art standard is quite high not like now so slack. Woooo.....Squeak!!! I sense danger!!!! XD I`m dead.....
Getting the cheapiest mac laptop soon within 2week and the motivation should be triggering soon with now I realise how important self-discipline is. Cool,now I dont mind a fierce gf with me yelling at me to do my work. Imao!!! That just kidding...hahaha...I dont want to be a slave!! XD
I know I really have to redo some of the work due to the term2 presentation. I know last minute is the one which lead my downfall. I am sorry for myself and to everyone too for being like this keep on slacking all my life...lolx....Chill somemore and I think I will accompany penguin at the north pole surfing the ice!!! Weeeee!!!! That freedom if it happen!!! XD Cant imagine how great it could be.
I know I`m stupid and useless but then surely I must have something to achieve in my life. Hahaha....wonder what can I achieve now? =/
Xiao shu Camera is fuji s3 pro!!!! Wtf!!! That camera itself is rank 16 out of 124 which compared to mine which he gave is 64 out of 100plus....Man, what to do....I quite happy cause IT FREEEEE!!!!!!!!!!! WAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!! However if I can use his camera, surely I can get better picture!!! Imao......his camera cost more than 3k...One scratch I will be send to the grave instantly!!! Scary!!!
Oh, time to say something. I want to express my wishes to those war veteran. I do not and may never understand the situation one may faced when returning to your own country to settle down with injuries that make you unable to work for a living and facing debt. I feel hell too when reading the new, to me I really feel like I have no where to run. If not for families and friends who stay side by side, surely commiting sucide is the only solution. No house to stay.......how can a soldier who fight for his own country and come back to face such situation? Peace is not easy to achieve but war is not an option. A total pacfiy( <-spelling not correct I think!!)
may not happen but senidng your own countrymen to fight and to return to have such life. What will you do if you are them, stoppping giving nice word and beautiful ideal to the world. When one go beyond the strength of it own but when continuing expanding his vision. Yes, they can have glory, fame,wealth and alot thing but for a limited of time. When your era is gone, you get nothing except emptiness and loneliness with no true friends and hardly anyone by your side.
This is the same logic apply to all people out there. You can be the top student and be a rich kid or whatever status you gain. The moment you are on the line of external(Illusion) you must balance yourself with intenal(the instinct of oneself) to see the light and darkness equally balancing your life. It is hard for everyone even for me. However whatever you do, think positive and you find life much beautiful as ever!!!
aLaMAak!!! I need a space to put the photography ink stuff. Feel like approaching people with locker but then....Who GOT LOCKER?!??! Imao...guess I have to carry to school.
Friend is not a transaction during a anime I have watch. I totally agree with it. Everyone got different destiny and lifestyle. We may get seperated like me now lonely in siglap!!!! Waaaa....why must it be me!!!! @___@||....SOb....however in my heart, I still care for them and no word is needed for explaination.What we do for our loved one, our family and our friends is pray for them everyday. This is for yourself as well as for them. Even you are unapperciated, it ok just continued to the same. So ja!!! =)
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 10:30 PM on Sunday, September 30, 2007
Fm933 still got play Ai ru chao shui ?!?!? Woa.......I really want to perfect singing that song. However the pitch so high!!!! My throat cannot go higher or else my voice give a *pop* sound and then you see me choking liao....Meow!!! Hahahaha.....gab mention that can train one. How how how?? =/ Old song are definitely better with meaning but then I also want to sing japanese song because the word you sing out is fine and smooth but then I dunno how to prounce the word. Imagine I alrealy have problem prouncing english and chinese word, that is far more terrible in japanese!! >_
Where Jasper?? I remember he will be back soon but no new from him!!!! Guo xiong dunno book out anot. Sian le!!!! I haven send the picture to the sui how they all and I WANT to edit first before sending to them. EEeeeekkk.....my grandma house com really cmi liao.....virus is totally dominating the whole com. It will crash sooner or later but hopefully can hold until I got the hard disk I have from my brother. Thank to ah di for buying me a hard disk!!! XD It so NICE COS IT FREE!!! WEEEEEE!!!!! I still can ask him why is there porn video in folder that is named music folder and he just grin at me. Waaa liew.....make me damn pasieh sia!!! >_
Mascot look fun and terrible cause I dunno how to sew but maybe I can go find 3gu pou to teach me if the time come. I hate needle espicially the big big one for transfering the blood. However since it for good cause, endure lor....hahaha...dunno why this few day after the donation can get dizzy easily one....
Saw shi nian on the way back, what to say. Can understand him and his lifestyle. Well, really time to go higher......
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.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 10:07 AM on Saturday, September 29, 2007
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 8:56 PM on Friday, September 28, 2007
When it rain it pour and I have to wake up!! Alamak.....the best time to sleep when it rain and I wake up when it rain. Tuuu duuu tuuu.......sad.....I wonder how much time will I spend finish typing whatever I want. Hahahaha....
First thing to note down, I know that studying is important. However if you are taking such tactic for the reason for breakup y9ou may cause the person depression with mental impact which will either block out the person will or have the morale fall. With such effect, the person actually may have greater diffculties in studying for O level. 1 month left and it not wise to breakup, that will apply to those who going to do that!! =X During this stepping stone of their life,what they need is encouragment and support at this moment. Dont leave them at this point, you will regret it. When you look back and wonder what the hell you have done, you will wish time will refold again. So hope 1 paragraph is able to express those victim feeling, spread the msg around. There are sure pros and cons too, but either they still need love just like everyone. =)
Ytd night went to ecp for enjoyment, can see alot of people there despite the fact that it is weekday and many tradditional lanterns. So me,peng yu and huan yeong just went to the seashore there and sit under the lively luminous moon. So we were chatting about some show and then suddenly huan yeong ask one question. Dont you feel it funny that until our age we never have a gf before? You see even ah meow ah kao ah sheng ah huat those kanna ram by lorry one all got gf one but left us no gf. Well, I guess is because nowaday Gal prefer guy who are being rammed by lorry or truck or love ghost movie. LOL!?!?!? Every morning can scare them wake up that why the gal will chose this kind of person or watch too much beauty and the beast. Who know, whatever now or future I only can hope to understand more about her. Nothing to hurry since I`m not going marry anyway, bleahx*** However the situation is like in red zone, look like I need a wing to cover her.
There are times people will fall into depression. It like everyone have to go through and to attain happines is to step back to examine**. For female it will be easier since you all have period and mood wing alway happen. Alamak.....you can swing how high you want, you dont swing until you fly off la....Muahahahah...When you feeling moody go out or even when you are tired chat with you family. It better than me alone down here in ecp and the only solution I have is to go ecp to enjoy the scenery there than meeting all my bros and sisters in cck. Tiaozzzz...so get something on your hand and hopefully you can get over it soon. =)
Today went to blood donation, 3rd times this time and it really pain sia!!! Alamak, the first 2 times not pain one sia, get to served by an auntie. I dunno she poke the needles for the blood transfer correctly anot.....eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek!!!! Everything is fine until when I can go off, I just realise my right arm hurt. It like a sharp piercing pain still inside there.......Crap...so stay in workshop for quite sometime and then go happy hour with indran and gabriel. Funny thing is that gaberial dont have my hp no which left me still hoping around for answer. =/
After the fun, went to smu there to chill. Chill until we chat abit more senstive stuff, thing is I`m abit old fashion and abit tradditional la. So it arlight la, my personality mahx....hahaha...some people dont see them funky or weird people, they are good at heart and they apperciate thing around them. Never judge a person easily too, mix more with them to understand them better instead of condemn such kind of person. I feel like I also being condemned too!! =P Fact is simple, I only want to watch her back and be her silent guardian till the time to leave arrived or to be together(My wish*). For I will be happy for I know the one in my heart has truly found happiness. Love is alway giving never taking, it can only be embrace that all. It can be hold but with gentle and care. It sound easy but to make it in action will be hard which I think I also may not make it. Hahahahaha.....
(???)
Take a feather with you by your side,
hold it under the moonlight to shine,
a warm cloak of blessing cover you,
a comfortable feel that usher you to bed,
Never feel empty for now or ever,
for moon is similing at you now,
the sun will be there for you,
never feel lost and empty,
Life is filled with thorn and pricks,
Let my wing be your stepping stone,
to guide you out of your misery,
close your eye and pray,
for the moment you pray,
I will be praying for you too,
I will be the one,
the one to give you happiness....
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 4:30 AM on Thursday, September 27, 2007
Get to meet all classmate again except yvetta and gafyy. Boy, why they absent one? Gaffy somehow really let me disappoint, he did told me he will do his best. Haizzz, when will the leaf rest on the bank? Ah lin shu shu went back to his design firm due to some situation and just chat with him my problem. I saw hope when listening to his question. Are you lost? This sentence power la!!! Hahahaha......I really lost and had no motivation at all. I understand staying back home is better than living with my grandma. There are pros and cons which me myself is unable to choose for I can only adapt not change. Waaa.....it sound so bad!!! T_T!!!
Guess as what Ah lin shu shu mention, it like that one. I dont see hope in unite the class guess fat hope le. =/ I gonna book basic driving test!!! Arrrggghhh!!! I gonna drive to the best spot for taking the most beautiful sunset and make it in my portfolio. Or drive to lim chu kang in the night to take some ghost photo!!! XD As long I dont get in headline I happy liao....Muahhaaha..
SRW produced by the Jam project is full of different rythm and instrument. However I really like the music even it could be mostly only 1min plus to 3minutes but it strong reflect the emotion and feeling to the listeners. I bet if I can do a nice flash with one of the song, I make all viewer cry!!! XD
(Friend)
Do not feel lonely when you are alone,
call or find anyone in your handphone,
Everyone will be glad to hear you voice,
trust us to trust you to trust a better tomorrow,
lead us to your favorite place,
show us that world of your own,
you will find friendship with us,
so live today and for your future,
we may not change your future,
we can shape your future together,
hand upon me and everyone,
you find laughter and joy today,
take it as the prize for today,
make it as memory forever,
in your heart or your mind,
that what friendship are for,
Open the door to have fresh air,
you will find light beyond that door,
embrace it with love and care,
friendship are fragile at time too,
Keep your eye to mark the step,
Angel in disguise guide you along,
Devil of seduction pull you down,
choose your friend carefully,
How about this poem? Maybe the english is abit simple...but this is for many out there. Cheer!!!
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 1:52 AM on Tuesday, September 25, 2007
Reaching the school, my face was full of -__-?!?!?...THE SCHOOL HAD OPERA!!! Omg!!! The best thing was that no student apperciate about the opera and everyone was restless. Seeing how almost all students had the sian sian expression made me want to laugh.Ayiooo......Maybe even Mr codeiro should start to think for everyone. =X I meet alot of old face which really brigthen the night!! So many friends were there!!! Chat non stop with some and must really confess everyone change but for the better too. Weee!!! I wont forget the old days in school. It is because of everyone that why I miss the school so much not the school!!! XD
So take the photo of the school and from the school area.No one hang around at the 6th corner. I expect to see some loving dovely couple hanging around. Woo hooo...heheheh.... Left the school around 9pm and went to meet jason. Saw him with DONKEY!! =X Well, that the nick given to her from them* =X I`m innocent!! Dont come poke me asking who say one.Heex....Take photo with friends and it is yi ping birthday. Get to take photo with sec5 friends,it seen they are the only one left who still remember me. =P I feel honoured* =X
So after leaving the school meet jason and then on the way to limbang park saw xiao mei at the playground!! Tiaozzz.....small world I guess. Hahaha, chat for a short while since I also on the rush. Somehow I got the feeling actually xiao mei did like the sec2 guy. I cannot give any comment because I am the 3rd party. It good to try, even it fail. Everyone still young. Although it is not impossible for a girl to be older than a guy to be together however the only problem is the age that matter. Too young.....hmmm....so the best for Xiao mei bai...haha...
Wait for Ym and chen boon at lot1 for a while and saw Jian kai!!! Woo hoo....he also kanna caught by the Saving program the sale promoter!!! Waaaa.....lucky I keep on reject the promoter...woo hoo!!! Continued the journey to limbang park to meet xingee....waa liew....actually if not she my sister I wont want to meet her. Walk so far!!! >.<....Dot!! Nothing much to chat also....ayiooo....so boring...haha....Meet Wendy again!! Woa......she sure look very pretty if she grow 5cm taller. Oopx....ahaha....First time talk to Samatha too. Wooo.....thought I wont get a chance to speak to her in my life...wahhahahaha......Junhao was there alone too. Just make me wonder how come there isnt any other guy with him. Hmmmm...... =/
After 10pm plus Peng yu come take us for supper, Tian zhong and Ai Xue also join in the fun too. Of course not to mention Airpork!!! XD Junjie bicycle is quite light compared to it size,bet must be quite an exp one. Went to Ang mo kio eat....and blah blah blah........1can of drink cost you $1.50!!! WAAA......That can drink really spoil my night!!! Awww......yuck, what the hell is the manager of that food court thinking!!! Why everyone anyhow rise the cost of the product one....Zzzzz...this is so unfair for everyone. Wont forget that night thank to everyone for that night, everyone of you just bring me back. Yeaaaa!!! XD
Sat was quite slack. Went to ym house and cut hair with ym. The cut is somehow really T.T!!!....MY HAIR!!! IT OVER!!! MUMMY!!! Ym mother give me a hair tonic!! Imao....it better work or else I will be monk in future!!! XD In the night meet with Jereld and Jason. This is damn horrible man, I only get to meet them less than 5 times this year and less than 3 times for xingee and yu hang!!! No one complain so I`m still safe!! =X Went to canal to chat and I am very surprise that night was quite windy and the moon just shine beautifully on the bridge as if welcoming us. The atomsphere was perfect and romantic but too bad, all guy only!!! Sad, must really wait for a gf then bring her there....Ggagagaga!!! XD One thing to say, no matter where the future lead us or even seperated us from anyone closed to us or what. Remember what we spent in the past, believe us and believe youself. No word will be needed when the time come. This is what everyone have to face. =)
So Sunday which is actually today la, wake up at 7.45am!!!! I must swear this is really the 1st sunday I wake up so early this yr!!! Power!!! I still actually having my perfect dream!!! Well, actually there isnt any dream. XD Went to help carry the food and meet peng yu and help carry the food. Meet Mu xing and Jian yi!!! WOO!!! It been a long time to see them again. Setting off after taking the bread at teckwhye market. It rain quite bad, everyone use the plastic bag for cover and apparently I am the worst user because I am the only one totally drenched when we reach Tian hui!!! T_T!!!.....my sock just turn soggy....soggy soggy!!! Well, it was really very crowded and quite hot too despite the weather. The food abit exp though.....Hmmm....somemore also hardly spend much....Saw alot of angel..can even see ming yik eye stuck on a gal!!! Muhahahahaha.......lolx....saw tsee wee also. =)
Went back grandma house after the visit and taking photo. Went for afternoon nap not long later and tata!!
Upload some of the photo at flicker since it been easy to upload several at one time. Wooooo......Laptop will be hard to come since I had to pay too. @_@.....tiaozzz.....City hunter and Angel heart is a touching story. Very impressed at the storyline. 5stars and it heartwarming too!!! XD
-=Our destiny lead us afar from our past however just move on and forward with faith.=-
That what I can think of to tell everyone. =P
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 12:02 AM on Monday, September 24, 2007
Maybe yes or no, we never know but what is left is for us to gain isnt it everyone? Run along and we will win for our lives. Yuppy!!! Tml friday....it spell trouble for my phone bill!!! My extra soucre of income was cut off!!! WEEEE!! Look like someone will be headline tml....Roar!!!
I will learn to that stage and understand why they willingly to listen and keep calm. It is not easy but I want to be like them and think the same way as them. Coldplay music is nice.....listen to their song like yellow,clock and so on!! Ggaga
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 1:33 AM on Friday, September 21, 2007
Cant find SD one,her pen knife she want it urgently but everytime call her alway mailbox. How to use mailbox? I no idea le...hahaha...who want to be a teacher to teach me? =P She better dun start with all those funny vuglar word on me!! Run away from her words!!! Weeee!!!
Tomorrow teckwhye secondary school and xingee ask me whether I will go. I think for one whole day and I really dunno should I go. Honestly I dun feel like going, I want to spend my own night meaningful to me. Maybe a night with my family and my friend bai. Although I miss xingee alot and sad to say I hardly take her out or chat with her even I am her brother. Guess this happen everytime to all my so call sibling,goodness no one come complain never spend time with them!!! WAhahahaha!!!! XD
I want to go Siew lian auntie house to take photo of her cats.She used to have more than 50cats in her own flat but she give alot away to dunno where and now left only 10plus. However xiao bai still with her!!! Xiao bai!!! I wanna to know you!!! Dont eat me !!! Cat dont eat hamster right?? Heeee!!! No idea whether I can go to her house at evening....Hmmmm....
Guo xiong went to NS ytd not today!!! WAA liew!!! Sob la.....I want to give him my best wishes but I forget!!! I also forget tse hwee sister birthday!!! Well done lor, I can even forget my best friend and my sister important date!!! Look like I not a good friend and person!!! XD Fu xian kor kor come back to sg 2months ago, I was very happy that he come back even though he mention it was a 3yrs trip. I got a feeling something bad happen but I believe it good to be back. Hardly meet and chat with him but he is really like kor kor to me. I cant do anything for anyone and everyone but I pray for all those who still dwell in earth. Be happy for yourself and for everyone!!! =D
Saw kee wee today when I decide to send my greeting of moon cake festival to all the aunties and promoter I know. Everyone was fine and saw lily!!! Thought she not going to work after married, thought she want a baby? Her tummy not big le...lolx...even big maybe is full of those oil. Muahahahaha!!!! =X jk ok?
Thx 3shu for the $60!! I own him alot of times and too much I guess but one thing for sure, I will not disappoint him. However need $80 more....siao la...help me!!! Omg...fortune god drop me a gold bar!!! One is enough!!! XD But the more the merrier!!!! WEEEE!!!! Just dont drop on my head....hahahaha....
It time for happy and fun song. I will start to work on the lyrics and the illustration soon hopefully. Lyric dun have to be complicated to be nice. It is the rythm and the sound and the meaning.
Thank to angel heart anime and comic. I realise what is the most important of life. Yaaaaa!!! 2bucket of tears today(Jk)!!! HAHAHA!!! Think you cry more y9ou can lose weight!!! Gonna give a try!!! =P
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 7:46 PM on Thursday, September 20, 2007
So I sleep very happy happy and I switch off the hp alarm and even the alarm I just tap it off when both ring at different timing.....it was near 10am when I got an sms...I read it and that one sms really wake me up!! It goes as dear customer, pls make immediate payment for your bills,or outgoing calls will be barred in 3days, pls ignore this if you have already made full payment. Waaaa....sian la...early in the morning this kind of stuff can happen...the problem is I no money sia!!! Omg!!!! The school fee and the expenses alrealy making my bank account number to eggy soon....I like egg but I dont want an egg number in my bank account!!! How how!!! So too bad la, I must think of something or else no outgoing call. Eeeeek....I nothing to say sia.....bet it will be $130 plus for that 3month of phone bill....Awwww....
2days left now.....sobx....gonna think of something....maybe I just take a knife and wait near an Atm there and rob someone. Woa....jk la...hahaha..u know my style. I wont do it....lalla.....Went to the school and do the 3D...best la...nice angel...Wing wing wing!!! One day hopefully my back will grow big and nice wings and I just fly to where i want. Dont have to pay for transport too!!! Weeee!!!!
This week abit tight..........well,sunday religon food fair I want to turn up. There will be alot of nice angels around. Yuppy!!! XD Heex!! Well, school starting soon. That a bad joke I guess....eeek!!! Got to hear Alicia going clubbing!! Quite surprise but when heard why she go that really make me laughing. Well, hope everything goes well for her. Such a nice girl, say wont we pray for her happiness? =) Gab say quite handsome and Joe say normal, whatever it is. It is their destiny and it is the fateful encounter that lead them together. =)
Mistake jasper brother for jasper!!! I feel someone will come finding me with a knife soon when he return to sg. Run run!!! XD
Life is how we create and enjoy with meaning. Live with joy and laughter to brighten our days ahead..... =)
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 1:08 AM on
Promise to show Mr lim my work on monday but then games just holdme up for hours and I never get it done...guess who the cuplrit!! Dont look at me!! XD
I get to watch Angel heart which was actually introduce by my uncle then my brother. Honestly speaking I dont understand why they like that kind of slow story so much. So I just watch the anime at crunchyroll and POWER LA!!! Nice story and comedy too...make me laught and shed tears like crap sia....5box of tissue paper gone in one afternoon today....LOLX....damn...I can be a water dispenser you know...haha...that jk... =P
I understand abit more life* and yea with my personality I know I can improve more although I`m sensitive...well,Assasin also quite sensitive.....that physically and I`m mentally!!! Weee!!! So does that count I`m a Assasin too? =X
Went to the chinatown see and see the lantern festival....hmmm....prefer chinese garden which had a lot more varieties and I am very impressed by the big big temple which I forget the name. Damn big and I really love the place....cool....one big buddha at the middle and everyone praying at him. So I was thinking, what happen if I am the one sitting there? I got a feeling, no one will even step into the temple bai...whahahaha.....sound like a damn bastard...lolx...
Hmm.....eating meat sometimes is quite a serious problem....I dunno what to do but I guess just try my best!!!
Anyway got to chat the end of world stories and what will happen. So earthquake and some water disaster just pop out and all the top government official run away leaving the country in complete chaos. Many dead from the collapsed building or drowned in those low level area. Shops being broken into and people being murdered openly with people all running around back home. No transport and roads all jam up. Lunatic just run away killing spree and destroying everything. Many left without shelter and night fall,the whole country was in pitch darkness with the only hope that the stars or the moon will guide them to their home. For weeks later when people in their home ran out of ration and water will start to explore with the embrace of death or new beginning. Those who are too weak to step out into the real world will either die from starvation, water and illness. Considering months later, many will fall due to the fact singapore have no agriculture and many food and drink should alrealy being cosumed alrealy.Many will start to kill each other and eat them up until the nothing left or hope arrive.
So in the night pray for the sun rise and in the day pray for sun set.......smell of burning and blood all around with smoke turning the whole sky black. It sound like a total hell and the moment you are in the street, there will be someone chasing you with some weapon. Kill or to be killed will be the lesson from that moment.
It could happen soon or later cause gabriel say it could be either this or next generation. Whatever it is, dont happen now or later cause I dont like it and I dont want to see people killing each other!! Sound scary mary right? Wooot!!! Dont start having nightmare after reading my post!!! Wahahahahaah....when that moment,use the power of your faith to survive the onslaught!! XD
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 1:28 AM on Wednesday, September 19, 2007
My brother was nice and of course we brother understand our own situation. It like we are now abit of so call facing some finacial problem and well our parent seen like got alot of stuff to pay. I dunno cause my duty now is to study hard......it gonna be really hard!!! So my brother just tell me one of his personnal stuff. I have nothing to say but his words do console me so is mine too. Whatever happen, we just have to be ourselves and do what we alway do. For our own sake and not for other. One thing is that we cannot pleased everyone, my words and my action alone may hurt you or other but yet it is never my intention. Only wish time and chance will arrive together to let me earn what I want.
Maybe someone can deny or heck about it but one thing for sure is that action speak louder than word. Since I`m abit of sensitive if doesnt mean I do not sense anything for that crazy 2weeks,hehe....
Last night get to know Jason live at where. 3rd floor and I can SEE him from my kitchen room!! Imao!!! Then we still can wave to each other saying hello!! you are the one waving right?!? wAHAHAHAHAH!!! Gonna meet him later for tea.I was thinking of visiting Violet since the projects mostly were given but then I remember I told Mr Lim that I will show him my work and my drawing including the research. So I do not know what to do for tomorrow and there is a farewell gathering for guo xiong too and also for japer for his educational trip to china.
One thing that flash across my mind was Yu jing and Hiutung. I do not know how and why but it like it a pity to such an outcome for only 2yrs plus. Feeling come and fade along with time? Seriously speaking, it all come from our mind. Maybe you got the feeling regardless of your choice but to fade the feeling is by each indivual. Too much talking is useless so the best thing to do is to apperciate what was left behind and what come along. If you want to regret something then go and cherish what you have to amend the mistake you done. For me, I guess I really no hope liao....now that crap. Imagine someone keep on giving hope to other and when it come to his turn. He just remain silent because that idiot only know to talk but not to apply on himself.Lolx....alamak.....
Wait for miracle and it will be 50-50 odd.....win or lose just nice...hahaha...
Moonlight shining on the bay,
Misty as alway along the river,
Walking along and alone,
hand in the pocket gripping with anxiety,
The night so lonely for none can bear,
fogging the dim litted passage,
so blurred my vision my light,
slowly foward with cautious,
did you see a little red heart?
strolling along the riverside,
a little red heart holding a liquor?
did you see a little red heart?
if anyone spotted him around,
give him a blanket and a candle,
say goodnight to him when you leave,
for you had given him the warmth he lack.
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 3:23 PM on Saturday, September 15, 2007
I swear I dunno need to print out 6 pieces of illustration and I got the feeling I just pass only thank to those design sketches,development and colour testing factors. If not I will be the 9th person!!! -_-...squeak!!!
Flash was kinda of lame sia, I should have use motion guide to settle the bee so the bee can fly more smoothly instead like some kind of bee that was like damn fake.Imao!! I do not know why is there a motivation now to do more work and I am really very serious in it. I do not know but yet I can tell it will change my future. One thing is that I really hope no one change class, this class is good enough as in even I may not be close with some classmate but then you have to understand that getting to know each other is not an easy thing. If need help,,ask for it and you will never know that you will get an hand. Of course must help yourself first!!
It will be definitely lame and some kind of bad joke if you started vuglar language on the start letting everyone catching no ball. You have to remember that whatever you speak reflect the personality of yourself. Dun anyhow say cb or knn in class....I still can remember putting 50push up for any vuglar language in media club and double for the senior. However cannot put in the class cause no one will do it.Hahahaha....I can understand what you are trying to say but you dun have to be like that. When you speak more politely and get rid of your unpleasant word,you will find the light of your classmates. =)
Whenever you go,there will be someone who will dislike you but be yourself and prove yourself. We ain no mess up and we come in peace. Be kind and be nice anyway, everyone will benefit. So......Dun run away problem by changing class or wat. Help each other.......you go designing......it will be groupwork not solo work......like creative department....unless you doing the printing or even editing you have to do pair work.....2brain is really better than one....trust me.....
All misunderstanding clear up hopefully by now but yet hard to say since I never get to discuss face to face.There is alway deception behind the sentence.We never know but let just hope for the best and remain the way as what we once are.. =)
Term 1 nightmare was finally over with the 2nd wave of onslaught on the way. More chill and it will be death that will embrace me within it abyss. Weee!!! Congralution to all!!! Weeeee!!!! XD
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 1:55 AM on